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Happy new week all!
Balance is such an important thing in our lives.
In June 2019 I moved back to Missouri, where I grew up, thinking that I was moving forward with the ideal romantic relationship for me. Things were not as they seemed and that fell apart pretty quickly.
Because of some technical issues with internet in that area I was barely doing any work online at all once I made that move. I was smack dab in the middle of the Bible belt, so when people in person heard about what I did for a living, they told me that they would pray for me more often than they said they had been thinking about getting a reading. The other common reaction was for them to all out try to "save" me on the spot.
I was soooo out of balance. I was not in a place where I felt like I could make much of a difference to anyone, much less to a group of people in my sphere of influence. By the end of 2019 I was having extreme pain in one of my knees. I told myself that I would do reiki on it, but I was so not myself that I almost never made the time to do that. By January or February of 2020, I was noticing that it seemed like one of my legs was noticeably longer than the other one. This was remarkable because that had never been the case before.
In September of 2020 a friend bought me a plane ticket back to Denver and hosted me in her home for 1 week. I had forgotten how good it felt to me to be in Colorado. Before the week was over, I resolved that in 6 months time, I would figure out a way to move back and to live in this state again, no if's and's or but's about it.
Long story short, I made it back to stay, exactly 6 months later. This was accomplished in March of 2021. At that time, my knee was still very painful although, not QUITE as much as it had been. My friend actually took all of my things down the steps as fast as I got them off the truck. If she hadn't have helped me like that, I don't know that I could have done it myself at that point.
Since then I have been finding my way. Becoming gradually much more active again professionally. I began partnering a local metaphysical store to do readings and reiki in person and to do more work online again. I began focusing some time for reiki on the knee in earnest within a few months of getting back to Colorado. After much improvement, I went to my doctor and admitted that I had made it a lot better but I needed a little medical help to get over the final hump. He ordered x-rays which showed that I had a torn meniscus, arthritis in the knee and that my kneecap was not positioned in a straight way on my knee. When the doctor called me with the results, he started off by saying: "You have lot's of reasons to have pain in that knee."
I was fitted with a brace for the knee. When I asked about how much it would help me, the specialist told me that it could help, or it could hurt. That it was taking pressure off of my knee in a place that was catching to much pressure, but it was redistributing that to the other side of me knee, and that part of things might not end up so well. I wore the brace for several hours a day for about 2 weeks. By then, the hurting part of the knee had had a break and felt much better, and I was also starting to notice some discomfort in that other part of my knee. I knew I had gotten all the good that I could out of that brace. It was a relief. For the most part, even to this day, that knee feels pretty good.
Fast forward to the last year to 18 months. I have bought 3 pair of close toed shoes during that time. Each time they have fit my left foot perfectly, but cause unbearable pain in my right foot (the same side as the knee that I had worked on) after only 20 minutes wearing the new shoes. At first I just thought my feet were spreading because I walk around in house shoes almost all day most days. After the third pair, I noticed that it was always the same one foot that had the problem so spreading FEET couldn't be the issue.
I saw a podiatrist earlier this month. She explained to me about step off points and inflammation in that area because for whatever reason, there was to much stress on the step off point of that foot. She suggested I tape my second toe and put some gel at the base of it to get rid of the inflammation that was widening my foot.
It wasn't until the next day, (I have my best thoughts in the morning before I get out of bed,) that I put 2 and 2 together, realizing that that step off point was probably inflamed because one leg had become noticeably longer than the other since 2019 and that would make sense that there would be more pressure on the long leg.
It's not that my leg is really longer, it's just that my hips have been not been aligned with each other all of this time.
I have a friend who does Feldenkrais. And after I had figured out the cause of the problem and knew I wouldn't see my podiatrist again for another two months, I had begun to do reiki about bringing my hips back into balance. One of the things reiki does, is instantly cause a healing of something, especially if it hasn't been going on for a long time already. One of the other interesting things reiki does as well though, is to give us good ideas about what else we can do about the problem we are doing reiki around. And after 2 days of lighting reiki candles for myself with that intention, I woke up with the idea of checking out how helpful Feldenkrais might or might not be in my situation.
I called my friend who does Feldenkrais in Italy and asked her some questions. They basically boiled down to what kind of help could I expect from this practice in my situation. She was very excited about it and recommended that I go to someone around here because she was sure it could help me.
I had my first integrative appointment with Nicki Fauble in Morrison on Wednesday. Yesterday I was able to wear both of my shoes for several hours while only noticing a little sensation, (I wouldn't even call it pain) on that foot. I didn't even come home and put everything down and immediately tear that shoe off of my foot for relief. I had gone out. When I got back, I still wore both of my shoes for another hour or two with no problems.
I don't know if my hip is exactly back where I need it to be or not yet, but I did feel it shift slightly at one point as I was walking on Thursday. I'm very excited about the improvements and highly recommend Nicki Fauble if you think you may be dealing with issues having to do with bones and muscles. If you have questions, she can help you understand what she does better than I can. This is her web-site if you are interested in knowing more: https://www.movewellcolorado.com/about-nicki
What I'm noticing is that, the more balance I get into my body, the more balance comes back to my life. This has been a little bit of a winding road for me to get here, (and I have left out some of the twists and turns,) but what I am noticing as I go through this journey, is just how important balance is to us as humans. People say that a lot. I say that a lot. But this experience has brought a knowing on a deeper level for me. I know that If I'm not doing my calling, I can't be balanced. That makes everything in life harder than it needs to be.
I'm not sure if the balance in my body is creating more balance in my life, or if me finding more balance in my life made me able to find the balance in my body again....or at least come close to it so far....I think this is a done deal, it's only a matter of time. Either way, having that balance and flow coming back into my life again feels awesome. I feel more like the old empowered me again. I am looking forward to being able to get out there and start hiking 2 days out of the week again. It's been a long time coming, but I think this spring will be the season.
Thank you guys for being a part of my life story. Thank you for reading as I analyze and learn from m here in these newsletters. You guys are the best clients, the best friends, the best supportive community a girl could ask for in the whole wide world.
Have a great week!
Peace,
Amista
