Mourning is Welcome Here
By April Nance
When preaching the Sermon on the Mount, sometimes I wish Jesus would have said, “Blessed are those who mourn, for their grief will end and their problems will be solved.” But I know, walking around in this earthly body, that’s not the way it works. Sorrow finds me as surely as joy does. Jesus says, “Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.” (Matthew 5:4) So my faith whispers: lean in to what it means to be comforted.
Over the past two years I’ve experienced devastating loss in my own family as well as in my church family. Gratefully I am reminded over and over that my tears are welcome at Haywood St. My mourning is blessed and comfort is found in a multitude of ways.
I find comfort when morning light streams through the stained glass windows illuminating the campfire scene in the Haywood Street Fresco. (Hello Blue, Thomas, Eric, and Popeye).
I find comfort when Koye has the volume turned way up on the YouTube video of Mahalia Jackson singing “How I Got Over” in the sanctuary on an otherwise quiet Monday morning.
I find comfort when Mary tells me she is going to give the small bouquet of roses and zinnias she wrapped in a paper towel to her bus driver.
I find comfort when I see Joseph sketching in the lobby.
I find comfort in Will’s interpretive dance as Jacob sings and plays guitar to Leonard Cohen’s “Hallelujah.”
I find comfort when Chris laughs at the corny joke I memorized to be able to tell him.
I find comfort when new and old friends gather to break bread around the table in the dining room, and the meal before us is a masterpiece.
I find comfort when I hear the rattle of buttons in ball jar prayer shakers.
I find comfort when, at the conclusion of worship, Dee asks me and everyone else in the congregation, “Who’s child are you?”
These strands of comfort and so many others are woven into a blanket that I wrap around myself - my whole self - when I am moved to tears. Moved to tears is an interesting expression - as if crying is a way to move from one place to another. How wonderful to have companionship along the way.
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On Tuesday at 1:00 in the sanctuary, we will gather for a Fresco Conversation on grief and how art, storytelling, and community accompany us along the journey. Conversation partners will be Kristen Tracy, Mark Siler, and Robert Stevenson. Mary Sullivan of YAWNi will share a song to open our time together.
On Wednesday, please join us at 12:30 in the sanctuary for a memorial service remembering loved ones we have lost in recent months.
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