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Just one of several issues you get to experience when aging! I've also come to realize that I am having issues with dates and appointments even when staring at the calendar!! What the hell is that all about? I'm lucky if I have the correct month hanging on the wall. As I've struggled physically, I can't deny my sense of self-worth, self-image, ego and purpose have been affected greatly. Who am I anymore? Certainly not a leader!!
My goal over the past fifteen years, more than helping horses in need - was to surround myself and my husband John - with volunteers and board members that would stay heavily involved and carry the torch in our later years. I was adamant that what John and I created would continue well past "us". That the homestead and farm/land continue to be AGES for as long as others care to do so! This past year I have been shown in hundreds of actions that this AGES community has and is doing just that!
While I've been chastising myself for "not being able to do this or that” the beloved group of others have done it all, just like I've always dreamed! "Be careful what you wish for"?? I wasn't aware my dream would come along with some angst about feelings of worthlessness!!
For the life of me, I will never fully comprehend...why awesome people.... come to clean manure....and keep coming back! I am pretty sure it has something to do with Amazing Grace!
I can never express the deep love, respect and admiration for these awesome souls of Team Ages! God has answered my prayers tenfold! I am humbled by this life experience - and that they all still let me hang out with them!!!
Alright 64! Come and get me! (I dislike even numbers in my age) I am odd.
I hope and pray by our next newsletter - that I will be able to work again with our horses and make magic happen for those we find forever loving homes!!!
Thank you everyone for being a great asset to this mission and dream!
Yours,
Erin
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